Sorry for the lack of posting. I've been busy dealing with the voices in my head. Actually - not voices. Ringing. Its called Tinnitus. And I've got it worse than I've ever had it.
As many of you know - I am hard of hearing. It's genetic - but I'm sure my job doesn't help the sitch, even though I try to be careful with my headphone levels. For years, I have dealt with ringing in my ears. It happens several times a day, every day. A high pitch will fade up into one ear and fade into the background after a few seconds. Sometimes the noise comes with the sensation of one ear 'blocking' momentarily. But I am SO used it it because I've had it for so long. It really never bothered me. Until...
A few weeks ago, I started getting ringing. But I mean - enduring ringing. The longest it's lasted so far is 30 minutes (it's actually there as I type this right now. Think 'flatline' but higher pitched). And twice, the sound has woken me up in the middle of the night, blocking all other sounds until I focus very hard to 'find' the ambient white noise of the humidifier. So, I started to get concerned. The thing with tinnitus is, the more you worry - the worse it gets. The more you focus, the more it bores into your brain. So the best thing I can do is ignore it. And it fades away at some point.
Today, I saw a doctor. She saw me as a special favour which was so nice. She tried to get me a hearing test and exam today--but I have to go back on Thursday afternoon for all of that. I'm lucky to get in so quickly.
Basically - I can predict the outcome. My hearing will have degraded since my last test and he will suggest a hearing aid. And you know what? This is the year I rock one, baby. People have asked me if I feel weird about it, and the truth is - not at all. I grew up with my mom wearing a hearing aid. It was normal to me. And if it will help me hear better, I'm all for it! It can also help ease the annoyance of tinnitus. But I want a cool one. I want colours. I want patterns. I want to accessorize my earwear!
Maybe there's a career change in order for me - haute couture ear designs. :) That'd be fun.
Anyhoo - that's what's going on with me. And, if you don't mind - please write you comments in CAPS so I can hear you better.