In case you didn't read J51's comment on the last post...go back and do it. He just lost his father. And even though there are no words that can help that kind of hurt I just wanted to say - we are thinking of you and your family during this difficult time. We are friends in the ether (and real life!) - and I thank you for sharing this here. From what I know, you've got a great family and support system around you. Don't be afraid to use them, as YOU have been their rock many times. May 2008 bring you all the health, happiness and joy you could hope for. One day at a time. You will get through this.